Wednesday, November 24, 2010 @ 12:07 AM
in just a few days, life took a 180 degree turn. i am losing myself. srsly. but i am a fighter and i will be one. you must be thinking what on earth am i talking about?
well.. i will start now with my grandmother story but you bet, it is an exciting one.
theres is guy who claimed that he liked me since many many many months ago. his name is jonathan ho jia han, 20 years old. to be frank, i did consider about getting together with him and all, he WAS a really nice guy, at least thats what i thought, until recently, by some kind of divine appt, i stumbled upon this (refer to image below)
yes, jonathan baba ho is him. that guy called me a CRAZY BITCH to his sister yup, and that crazy headless duck is me as well.
let me make myself clear, i did not steal his money nor did i sleep with him (or anyone else for a fact)
ahem, now is for some background to that incident that he is refering to, in his nahming part about his job.
jonathan is not an O level kid, he has a A level cert under his name. he recently found a job and he is paid 6 bucks an hour. ok, yes he doesnt have any experience, but 6 bucks per hour for an office job? are u kidding me? i have a cute bestfriend, who is schooling in ITE now (by no means am i despising her), earning the same amt of pay, working part time. while he, A levels, able work for 3 months at least, full time job, is earning 6 bucks per hour.
being a nice friend, i told him to find a better job. he deserves a higher pay! i felt damm unjustified that he is only paid 6 bucks an hour. i told him to forget about that job, dont even waste the time to attend that interview. thats not his dream job btw. i admit i did nag quite a fair bit, cos he talked to me like as if he has never ever seen 6 bucks in his entire life before. he was happy to have 6 bucks per hour job but in actual fact, he is underpaid. i tried to talk him out of gg for the interview cos 6 bucks is simply not worth it. but of course, he refuse to listen and went ahead. so i gave up persuading him as well. i nagged till a certain point and stopped cos i know he wasnt taking in what i am trying to tell him: 6 BUCKS IS PATHETIC.
so we moved along with life, thinking all is well. we chatted, talked like usual and all for a week or so. until, i stumbled across this msg in his fb acc.
Now, before you think i am some stalker, I AM NOT, never will i do that to him. i was in his fb acc cos i got his sister who is in the states now to send some stuff over to me. She paid for postage first and i forgot the amt, thus, i went back in to check cos he was the one who told me to do so before. Since i have no idea which msg have the info, i went to click on his latest msg with his sister's name and ALAS, i found the comment as of above.
srsly, i feel damm unjustified. i was called a crazy bitch cos i showed concern to him finding a job and telling him he is underpaid. Advising him that he deserve better. Because of that, i am a CRAZY BITCH?
ok fine, he might be angry at that point of time when i nag at him, but the thing is, he did not show a tinge of anger. he acted like all sweet and nice, telling me not to worry so much about him. but a minute later of saying those words, he went online and called me a crazy bitch.
well well well, if you dont call this guy a two faced idiot, i do not know what else shld i call him.
i am thoroughly disgusted.
this is the same guy that said that he love me. this is the same guy that i trusted almost a 100% with my heart. but this is also the same guy that called me a bitch.
i am speechless. i have never felt anymore betrayed than now. my haters who calls me bitch, i dont care. i really dont. but a close friend who calls you a bitch? this is something new. i felt my heart slashed right in the middle.
what did i do to deserve this. srsly.
when i confronted him with this, all he said was, "i said it out of anger"
*clap clap clap* great excuse. do i look like some 3 year old kiddo here?
at least, i freaking graduated with a diploma this year. you dont fool me like that.
am i suppose to, awwww.. i will forgive you then since you said it out of anger.
NO. i dont freaking get it. SO WHAT IF YOU ARE ANGRY? you dont call your mum a slut even is you are angry at her. I never named him as a jerk/bastard even when he made me wait 3 hours at the airport for him (ALONE) during midnight when i have work the next day and later got ditched by him. was i angry then? you bet. but did i call him a jerk/bastard? i did not. cos i respected him as my friend still.
that sense of respect for the lady you love (at least you claim to love). where have that gone to? guys, srsly, u gotta respect your lady and u gotta treat her right. i hate to hear guys, ill treating their girlfriends. their girlfriend dont deserve it! (unless they fall into the category of slut, whores)
i shall stop ranting about it. forgive forgive. forgetting will take some time though.
one good thing that came out from this incident, i know who my true friends are and who have the best interest of me. i told my er jie about this and she defended for him. why is she still my sister? if my little sister tells me about this incident, man, you can be sure, i will kick his balls for my lil sister sake! you dont call me sister a bitch. but no, my er jie thinks is my fault. she thinks i agitated him into calling me a bitch. wow.. why do i still need enemies when i have a sister like her? srsly. the mouth and tongue is his, he can choose to call me an idiot monster, stupid, brainless and i wouldnt even be mad. but a bitch is way overboard.
alright. i am done with this.
will you still be friends with someone like that?
i am lost.
(Pardon my eng, i am damm tired and am in no mood to edit)
